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Jeenocktae
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Name: Jennifer
Birthday: 6/22/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: Hmm... interests, let's see that would have to be friends, family, good times, all- nighters, more good times, men, professional nude modeling, good movies, scary movies, men with no clothes :)
Expertise: Nursing, heck yes!
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
MSN: pnutbuttr18@hotmail.com
Member Since:
12/10/2003
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| So I have decided that I need to do something. Anything. I need something exciting and thrilling and intriguing. I am 22 years old. There is no reason for me not to be living out my dreams right now. I have come to terms with the fact that I am a wonderful amazing woman who deserves to live the life of a wonderful amazing woman. Who is to tell me different?? No one... not even me. Which may not make sense to the lot of you but it does to me and I need this rant. Where is the man of my dreams? Why did Snow White get one, and Cinderella and even Belle although hers was a fixer uppper!? Mediocrity? Ya know what? I am done with mediocrity. Bring on crazy and whirlwind and breathtaking. Really. Just bring it. I can handle it. I know you don't believe me but what do I have to lose? A safe and semi stable at times good most times ok and every now and then heartwrenching frustrating and outright infuriating relationship??? .................... Sorry. I needed a breather. I was getting a bit out of hand. I just mean really... there are those men out there that I know I could have had if I had only went out to get them. There was the high school guy that maybe if I had been a bit more aggressive and self confident would have followed me around like a puppy instead of the other way around. Then there was the college guy who just decided it was okay to make me fall in love with him only to tell me I wasn't good enough. Well screw you buddy, you have no idea what you are missing out on. Seriously! Did you think it was okay to make me feel so great one minute and then just throw me to the wayside a minute later because something more exotic came along? Whatever. THEN! There was the man I seriously dreamed about! How gorgeous were you? And why did you keep me on the fence just to spend that one perfect night with me in Vermillion in the rain and leave forever??? Why first the fat girl and then you keep me dangling? If I had just leaned in for that kiss instead of chickening out that things would be different right now. But whatever. You would think that my love woes would be ending but alas, there is more. The man who thought, well I don't know what he thought. This man just didn't have the balls to admit that he had feelings for me and then WAITED to tell me how he felt until it was too late for me to act on it. Now what is that???
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Now. A boyfriend who at times makes my heart skip a beat when he looks at me like he does, or the way he holds me and brushes my hair away from my face when I don't feel well, and rubs my feet when I've had a long day and takes care of me when I forget to take care of me...
...then why does it feel like there should be something more??
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| A little baby doll. Thats what he looked like. Today I had my first sad experience on the floor... This little baby boy had Potters syndrome. He lived for an hour after he was born. The mom knew that it was going to happen, I guess they find out before the birth, like a month before or so. But they are born without kindeys... so... you cant live without kidneys. But i guess what we do is we dress the little baby in whatever clothes mom wants. We get their tiny little footprints. We take a picture of baby all dressed up and after they pass we place them in this tiny wicker basket and let mom spend some time with him. And then we take them downstairs.... I got to see baby when he was in the little wicker basket. It was weird. He looked just like a baby doll. I thought I should cry, but I couldnt. I mean, he didnt looked like he wasnt alive... | | |
| Well.... two weeks on the floor so far. Never thought I would love it as much as I do already! I get to teach new moms how to give their baby a bath. Show new dads how to change a diaper and watch their face when its really gross! Lol.. they are so squeamish those Dads! I get to help single moms, first time moms, couples that are adopting, moms that have twins, moms that have 8 kids at home and everything inbetween! I keep so busy with my new job that when Im not at work, I find that I am looking forward to going the next day. I am learning so much more than I ever did in school its just amazing. I can take care of two patients all on my own, I just ask for help when I need it. I can round with doctors and call doc's when I need new orders and im getting pretty confident with it! Lol... except when I answered the phone wrong and stammered out, "Jennifer, this is Post Partum!" instead of "Postpartum, this is Jennifer!" The doctor probably thought I was an airhead, but eh. Thats ok! I cant wait to go over to Labor and Delivery and actually help deliver new little babies! | | |
| Alrighty. So its done. First week on the new job!! It was all orientation. Pretty boring stuff if ya ask me. But the plus side is that it was safe. Nothing too new, learning computer stuff and doing self studies. And I got paid $18.36 bucks an hour to do it. I start working with my preceptor on Monday. Thats the scary stuff! Im like 80% excited and 20% freaked out. Its like showtime, ya know? The audience is there, the set is perfect.Im just waiting behind the wings waiting to go on! Here goes nothin! | | |
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